He Said/ She Said
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Sapphire13 (Mon Aug 21, 2006 at 09:49:20 PM EST) (
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WHAT HE SAID
Sunday, August 20. 2006I have been too damn busy...
Between work and school I haven't had time to update. I am in school at 7 and don't get out of work 'till 7. It makes for long days. plus when i get out of work I am a stink monkey. I work outside in the HOT Arizona sun and some days it feels like it's killing me. I am a Maine boy, and I am not used to this kind of heat. I don't care if it is a dry heat, it's fucking hot! I think I have had 2 days at work under 100 degrees. So you'll have to forgive me if I don't have energy to shlep my ass to the library to update this shit. I still love you all, just now I love you very slowly.
I have finished motorcycle theory. I finished with 97 average. I missed top student. The guy who got it beat me by 1 point. but I have a whole year to kick hs ass. I am now in my first clinic, rims, tires, and suspension. I am learning to change rim bearings, lace and true rims, change tires in a number of different machines. I am also going to learn how to rebulild forks, check shocks, and learn about brakes. It has been alot of fun so far. We had a substitute for the first week. He was OK but he went out to the bars and got drunk one night and didn't make it to class. We(the class) waited in the hall until 7:20 before someone let us in the room and didn't get an instructor until almost 8. For all the damn money we are spending I would hope they would be a little more on the ball.
To everyone who went to Statewide without us, We are so jealous. This is the first statewide I have missed in 6 years. I have been all stupid about it all weekend. i raelly miss it. I do miss all of my friends alot. Things have been real stressful here. My job sucks and things haven't been real good at home. Beth and I have been fighting alot lately and it gets hard to find a peaceful place to relax. I find myself thinking of my home and the people I had to leave behind to come do this. I wish I was there to hang out with you all. You never know how much you love people until they are not around and I know how much I miss you all. I am just going to keep on truckin' through school and then I be running on back to Maine. Keep on keepin' on, I will be home soon.
WHAT SHE HAS TO SAY
Most of his entries are pretty cool. I just got angry about the comment about us fighting a lot lately. We haven't been fighting. I have brought up two things recently. Normally, he doesn't respond to what I say. He just sits there and stew. I don't yell or nag. I'll cite this example. Saturday night he went to a friend's house to play poker. I'm all about him hanging out with the guys. The only thing I asked him to do was come home. I felt my reason was acceptable. I'm simply not ready (I'm scared to stay in the apartment alone at night right now.) If were in Portland, it wouldn't have been an issue. I was comfortable, I didn't have fears about some maniac breaking into my apartment in the middle of the night to murder me. Skip to the end. He didn't come home. I was upset...mostly because I didn't get any sleep. I didn't yell at hime when he got home. I basically said to him that I was upset that he didn't come home. I said that I thought he understood that I wasn't ready to stay alone. He just ignored me. He gave me the silent treatment for about a day. I mentioned the other thing in a past dairy. I don't nag. I don't whine. In reality, I really let TOO much slide by.
Lately he has been treating me like a roommate. Of course, I'm the roommate who buys all the food, pays the rent and puts gas in the car. He is finally getting a decent paycheck, so I'm hoping that Money isn't going to be as tight.
We haven't had sex in two months. I'm really in need of a good romp in the sack. Cecil (my toy) just isn't doing it for me lately.
I really need to get away from him for awhile. I can't wait to get to Maine. I hope I can afford it!
Sorry to gripe so much, I lost sleep about this last night. I want to talk to him about it, but he will just see it as some kind of attack. He has said for almost a yar that he wants to have a talk. He never seems to bring anything up. When I try, he just avoids the issues
